Just when we thought summer was gone for good, it has given us one last sunny spell! In my 5-year experience of Abbotsford, September has generally been a nice month for weather and it looks like that trend will continue once again!
We have been frustrated lately with Micah's sensitivity and anxiety. After we overcame the hurdle of Kids Quest (Sunday School) last year, it seems he has regressed after a summer of being off-schedule. Every time Erik tries to bring him now, he has a major meltdown. Erik remembers being like this as a kid - very anxious about new situations and especially about being away from his parents. We're not sure how to overcome this. There's one thing we've decided for sure this summer, and that's to hold him back a year in school. Because of his December birthday we knew this would be a debate, and for the last 6 months it has been especially on my mind because I wasn't sure if I should be enrolling him in preschool for this fall. I felt like I was waiting for someone to tell me what to do and finally Erik just made the decision for me. Based on Micah's behavior lately, I am feeling very peaceful about it. If dropping Micah off for a half-hour of Sunday School is such an ordeal, I can't imagine dealing with dropping him off 2 or 3 days a week at a preschool. I'm just not in a space to handle that right now. And I'm praying that time will decrease anxiety and increase confidence.
In the meantime I hope to give Micah more experience playing with other kids and/or being in a class type setting (i.e. swimming lesssons, gymnastics, etc). However, just the mention of swimming lessons still brings fear into his eyes (you might remember our episodes back in the winter). And when I have mentioned gymnastics or other sports he says he just doesn't want to! So, my question for all of you is this: Do I just enroll him in stuff and force him to try new things? Or do I need to wait it out until he seems more ready? (At this point I fear that time will never come!)
Keziah seems to be growing up before our eyes. Erik and I agree that she's getting cuter all the time. She's developing this goofy little personality that is so adorable. She's also developing a very strong-willed and independent spirit. I have always thought that both of my kids were kind of intense, but I am now starting to pin-point major differences in their personalities. Keziah has NO problem being away from us (and generally behaves better from what we hear!). She has taught herself to do things already that Micah needed to be prompted to do. She has initiated pooping on the potty 3 times in the past week and I am doing NOTHING to encourage her (other than a smartie as a reward)! She also throws temper tantrums (which we didn't experience much with Micah) when she can't have her way.
I love the look on her face here as she rides the rockin' seal!
So while we may feel like Micah's personality is frustrating right now, I pray that he grows up to be a sensitive soul - and perhaps someone who will love coming home to his Mommy even when he's a grown man :) And Keziah could be the real trouble-maker when she hits her teenage years... who knows! I hope that we can point her independence and persistence in a positive direction.
My days are getting busier now as my transcription work-load increases. I have also committed to babysitting 2 days a week - one day for our adorable nephew Caleb and one day for a busy little guy who is 5 months younger than Keziah. I did some babysitting when Micah was a toddler but I'm finding it a bit easier this time as we are already in a routine and I am accustomed to having more than one kid around!
I'm still feeling nauseated every day but I think the intensity is improving. I've noticed I can go longer stretches now without needing to eat. I just can't seem to get past the exhaustion that I feel. I go to bed early and often nap, yet I still feel tired all day. Now that I need to use nap-time for transcription work, I am very thankful for coffee!