Friday, September 21, 2007


This has been a week of sickness. First it was Micah, then yesterday Keziah joined the ranks and today I feel lousy too. Just a cold, but still no fun. Keziah is a demanding baby at the best of times, but yesterday my arms ached from holding her. It took me ALL afternoon to make a salad and get myself showered and ready for our care group potluck in the evening. I had to do everything in stages between holding Keziah, entertaining Keziah, trying to feed Keziah, trying to get Keziah to go to sleep... Later in the evening the kids were asleep and I accomplished more in one hour than I had all day. At least my kitchen was clean when I went to bed. I hate waking up to a dirty kitchen.

Here's a montage of Keziah the other night before her bath. Pictures like this make me glad to have a privatized blog for the freedom to post her cute little baby bum...

Hmmm, what's in here?

Oh, hey mom.

Am I sitting on something?

I love you!

Micah loves being naked too. And apparently he aspires to be a circus act...

Life continues in a forward motion. Sometimes I fool myself into thinking that if I can keep busy and put time between myself and Nathan's death, that it will feel better. But we can't escape grief. It is with us no matter where we go or what we do. But I have found some comfort in reading Randy Alcorn's book entitled Heaven. It has given me a longing for my eternal home that I have never before experienced as I begin to imagine what it will actually be like. Alcorn believes the Bible gives proof that there is a present Heaven where all believers go when they die, but that our final and eternal home will be the New Earth - which isn't in some distant dimension somewhere, it's right here on our present Earth - fully restored and perfect. He also points out many passages that say our earthly bodies will also be resurrected and restored. The goal being that we will live just as God had intended for us back when he created the earth and the beautiful garden of Eden. Here's a quote from his book:

"God has never given up on his original creation. Yet somehow we've managed to overlook an entire biblical vocabulary that makes this point clear. Reconcile. Redeem. Restore. Recover. Return. Renew. Regenerate. Resurrect... These words emphasize that God always sees us in light of what he intended us to be, and he always seeks to restore us to that design. Likewise, he sees the earth in terms of what he intended it to be, and he seeks to restore it to its original design."

God isn't about throwing away the old and making something new - he is about restoration! I was reminded of the passage from Romans 8 that talks about creation being "liberated from its bondage to decay and brought into the glorious freedom of the children of God" (v. 21). Suddenly heaven doesn't feel so distant and strange and ethereal. It's a real place that we can see and taste and touch! Where people never die or get in accidents, where there is no sickness or need for a doctor, where there is no nasty cold virus! I haven't stopped thinking about Heaven since I started this book and I can honestly say for the first time that I'm anxious to get there. As much as this present Earth can feel like home, there is a place that was tailor-made for us and will be our perfect home:

"But our citizenship is in heaven. And we eagerly await a Savior from there, the Lord Jesus Christ, who, by the power that enables him to bring everything under his control, will transform our lowly bodies so that they will be like his glorious body."
Philippians 3:21

Homesick - by Mercy Me

You're in a better place, I've heard a thousand times
And at least a thousand times I've rejoiced for you
But the reason why I'm broken, the reason why I cry
Is how long must I wait to be with you

I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now

Help me Lord cause I don't understand your ways
The reason why I wonder if I'll ever know
But, even if you showed me, the hurt would be the same
Cause I'm still here so far away from home

I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now

In Christ, there are no goodbyes
And in Christ, there is no end
So I'll hold onto Jesus with all that I have
To see you again
To see you again

And I close my eyes and I see your face
If home's where my heart is then I'm out of place
Lord, won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
Won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
Won't you give me strength to make it through somehow
I've never been more homesick than now


Bonnie said...

I must say that Randy Alcorn has made me 'anxious' for the first time too. I think of you guys every time I read another chapter and everytime I hear that song. I haven't stopped praying for you. Hope you're feeling better soon!

Karen said...

The cold virus has invaded our house too! So, I feel for you! I hope we all get better soon!
And, I too think of you guys when I hear that song.

Michelle said...

Great post Jamie! Brooklyn loves to be naked too!! I'm afraid daycare will call saying she won't leave her clothes on!! And I must say Keziah has a very cute bum!! If only they stay that cute!!! Hope everyone feels better soon..being sick SUCKS!!

kelly said...

cute naked bums! :)
thanks for sharing those thoughts; definitely something to dwell on.

Yvonne&Eric said...

Bathtime pics are the greatest - I have a ton of Kyra right before and after bathtime:) Sorry that you all have colds - same goes for our household. I'm really, really wanting to read that book. Praying for you still and hoping your colds get better fast.

Amber said...

You have inspired me to get my hands on a copy of that sounds amazing. It's awesome hoe you have been able to get so much out of it.

I love the heart on Keziah's cute little bum :) I hope the sick germs leave you all alone and that you are feeling better soon!!

Leanne said...

Very interesting thoughts on heaven...makes it more realistic, and not such an 'ethereal' (as you so eloquently put it) place. Thank you for sharing this.

Interesting how September always issues in the cold and flu season. Bleh. My reminder to get the hand sanitizer out - here's to better hand washing!! (Ah, life with a preemie...)
Hope you're all feeling better soon.

Anonymous said...

Heehee - cute pics of the kiddos!

Summer said...

Our house got the cold virus too. hope everyone feels better soon.
Cute pictures of the kids!!!

Trev & Rebekah said...

I hope you all feel better soon.
Love the cute pictures of the kids.
Heaven is something I have often thought about too. A number of loved ones have passed away in my life-time and I have often wondered if they were in Heaven and what it was like there.
Still thinking of you every day,

Anonymous said...

hi Jamie.. I totally understand what you are saying about heaven. With Noah back in the hospital, there is always that reminder, of how fragile our lives are here, and how temporary, and I think of all those who are waiting for us there. makes me very homesick at times. We are looking forward to seeing you, hopefully within 10 days or so. Love you so much, can't wait to hold you in my arms, adn also can't wait to see those precious bsabies of yours. love mom